I'm having a relapse.

People ask me why it takes so long for me to recover.
I don't know..i wish i knew it either.
Maybe its because i'm nt as lucky as them, having other ppl to be able to use as substitutes.

And i think it's stupid blogging about all these because i know i will be fine in a few hours, or a few days. But i feel so much pain inside, its killing me.

I dont know how long more it will take me to get over all these, but i'm really praying it will be soon. I think a few years is more than enough to torture a 17yr old girl. I barely went through 1/4 of my life ( i plan to live till 80+, thank you v much.) and i feel like an old woman inside sometimes.

I want to cry, to scream, to throw things, cos all the frustration's boiling up inside me. But i know, patience's all i need at this point of time.

I waited for a few years, so i just need to hold on a little longer right? I know ill be fine again soon.
All i need to do now is wait, and to tolerate.

I did that before, and i can do it again.

Being Loved ;
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